It’s insane how a year and a half ago I was an independent teenager whose theme song was “Perfectly Lonely” by John Mayer. Now, I feel as if my heart has been encompassed by a single person. It is near to impossible to let him go. Not a minute goes by that I don’t think about him and when I go to sleep my body trembles at the thought that when I wake up, I wont have a text from him to open the day with. I’ve tried to let him be, but my heart just won’t let me. I feel as though gravity is pulling me towards him, but he is fighting it to it’s death. It’s just so hard to share so much with one person and not keep them in your life. Yes, I’m sure I’m over analyzing his silence, but I can’t help but to think he doesn’t care. I can’t help but to wonder if even a piece of him misses me. I know I can get back to my independent and happy state, but it’s just so hard to see the light at the end of this morbid tunnel. I know I will be strong, and I know I’ll carry on.